A way through everything...

I realized today that sometimes it seems like I encounter stumbling blocks, and I feel suffocated, as if there is no way out. But I realized with effort there is. There is a way out. And that way out, is letting the steam out from inside and transforming the negative pressure it creates inside to positive constructive energy.

Today, I did this by taking a deep breath and focusing my energy to the center of my head...rubbing my eyes and face. And then realizing what I need to do: finish my application to University of Cincinnati to the PhD program. God knows I wanted to just sit there and pretend the world was ending. But mechanically at first (without my heart and attention) I just proceeded with my day and with my work and then I realized that is how it should be. Everything goes on....

Then I took a bath and completely relaxed and let my tension out.

See, there are ways to rejuvinate and appreciate life again!

I also thought about my partner, and how she has been so incredibly supportive. I don't know how she does it sometimes, with my twists and turns in emotions and moods... but she's always there for me. And I appreciate that to no end.

There are many people in my life who are supportive in me as a person and who I love and cherish. My friend Shehreen, who has such a kind heart and who has been there so immeasurably that I am so grateful to her. My sister, who I have a very rocky and one of the most meaningful relationships with. She has been such a great sister and is one of the most important people in my life. Also, my dad who is also a very kind soul and is always there for me. Other friends (Cherise and Naomi-- I heart you!) Betty- who calls me every weekend to check up on me. She has almost done this since high school. My aunt, uncle, and three cousins in Berlin who are like my second family.

So the point is that it is easy to take people in your life for granted or not rely on the love you give eachother. But this love and what we share are so important. You are not alone, there are people thinking about you and sending well wishes your way....and I'm sure you do the same. :)